Wits End

I fear I have reached the end of my ability to endure this ordeal.  I am finally well enough to be released from the hospital, with the proper home health care, and to move in with my parents for awhile whilst I continue to recover from the accident, yet I cannot be released.  In the whole of the entire region in which my parents live there is not a single home health care provider who will both accept my health insurance and meet all of my care needs.  The one agency which could accept me, cannot arrange the physical therapy I require to fully regain the use of my legs.

As such I am rapidly finding myself in between a rock and a hard place.  The doctor's will not release me from the hospital where I currently reside without the home health care I need, I cannot arrange the health care required in the one place where I can live at the moment, and the insurance is loath to continue to pay for the expensive, in-patient services of the hospital.  What in the name of all that is holy am I supposed to do?  I certainly can't afford the costs of staying in the hospital if my insurance refuses to continue paying for it and the issue of who is and is not willing to accept my insurance is certainly beyond my influence as well.

I find myself growing exhausted with this entire situation.  No, exhausted is too light a word, I find myself growing weary.  Weary in my heart, mind, spirit and body to such an extent that I find myself entertaining thoughts that it might have been better had I not survived the car accident at all.  I am losing hope.

I can only pray that this problems are resolved soon, because I don't know how I'll cope otherwise.